Mercy Found Me

For the longest time now a good friend has been saying to me how she doesn't understand what she ever did to me. And over and over again I would repeat to her that there was absolutely nothing wrong between us. At first I did not seem to have the words to explain myself until recently when we happened to have a repeat of the same conversation and as i whispered to God to grant me wisdom I got to explain to her. At times in order for God to use us He will find it necessary to isolate us. At times bringing us out of the familiar into the unfamiliar. Because at times the familiar could be a distraction of where God could be taking us inoder for us to be moulded into what God has in store for us. At that moment then He has to bring us out of what may be a hindrance towards His divine purpose in our lives. When I moved from my familiar to my unfamiliar I did not understand what exactly God had for me. And for a few years I struggled to settle. In many cases I wondered if it was r...

To my beloved the church. The Lord is saying that He is concerned about the hurting. Specifically to them that are hurting due to molestation either as children or as adults. Them that are hurting due to domestic violence. Them that are hurting due to being abandoned by those that they truly trusted. Them that are still hurting because the enemy saw their vulnability and took advantage of that. The Lord is saying that in this season He is sending a holy embrace over your life such that you have never encountered before. Such that no manner of counseling can heal. He says that He sees your hurting heart and He sees your pain and your bitterness. He sees how much you want to forget and move on but He also sees the chains that the enemy bound your spirit with such that you can not let go on no matter how much you try. He says He sees the anger and the bitterness. He sees the will to revenge and the unforgiveness. He sees how much you want to let go but no matter how much you try so...

There is always an unpleasant awareness of how much hurt comes from the church. It's an unspoken hurt. Today as i shared with a friend about this topic i echoed how church hurt is almost if not at all similar to family hurt or worse. Many of us may be experiencing or may have experienced church hurt. What makes it different is that it happens in the place where you thought safety existed. Psalm 41:9 Yea, mine own familiar friend, in whom I trusted, which did eat of my bread, hath lifted up his heel against me. If you are a regular attendee of a church, ministry, or faith group, the chances are high that at one time or another you’ve had your feelings hurt, either by a member of the congregation, or even by a Pastor, Minister or other Church leader. The feeling that immediately sets in is why? Why would those that you thought would be your "protectors" all of a sudden seem or feel some type of way about you? Why the outright jealous? Why the consistent gossip? The ma...

29.11.2018. The day starts with God as its agenda. Surrendering all to Him as the master planner. My son school teachers are called in for an emergency meeting and the kids are to be released at midday on this particular day. As other kids decide to catch the bus back home or ask the administration/teachers to call their guardian to arrange about their pick up my son decides to first have his lunch. At this point he has a couple of options to arrange for his pick up. He can wait until when school closes on normal days. He can walk a few classes to his step sisters class who happens to be a teacher in the same school and ask that she call their dad. He can speak to his class teacher and ask that she contacts the parents. He can walk to the administration office and ask that his parents are contacted for them to arrange his pick up. And the very least of options he can walk by the bus stand and pick a bus home that will drop him right outside the house. 3:26 PM. I hear dog growls I...

The Threshing Floor I can't seem to keep my mind off the threshing floor for the last couple of weeks. What happens at the threshing floor? At the threshing floor you’ll find the beautiful and difficult. You’ll find a forever home in Jesus, but also a death-to-the-life experience like you’ve never known. As you seek God at the threshing floor He hears and responds, but the outcome requires obedience of His unwavering expectations. At the threshing floor you repent and lay down your life. This is not a one-time thing, but a daily journey of learning to live in obedience. It is not a life of cheap grace without the cross. At the threshing floor we celebrate. He paid the price for our freedom. We no longer have to live in exile, but receive victory through the blood of Jesus. And this brings us back to the difficult, because we must go through the fire. I don’t know about you, but I keep crawling down off the altar. In our humanness, it’s easy to forget it’s in the sac...

Absalom As I was going through my study today in 1 Corinthians 5 meditating on what Paul termed as grave sin found in the church at Corinth. "...and of a kind that even pagans do not tolerate: A man is sleeping with his father’s wife..hand this man over to Satan for the destruction of the flesh..." the holy spirit brought to my remeberance the story of other bible characters that had also committed this heinous act before and the consequences that befell them.Today we look at the most handsome man in all Israel Absalom. David's son. Absalom was David’s third son, after Amnon and Daniel. At the time of his plot to overthrown his father, Absalom was probably the most likely next king. Amnon, the firstborn, was dead; Daniel Abigail's son might not have survived childhood (or he died in a later battle) since he wasn’t mentioned beyond having been born to David in Hebron (see 1 Chronicles 3:1-9). So Absalom didn’t have to plot for the throne. He could have just wai...

T o be quickly rich without any labor, this is the dream of all sinners. That is the foundation of gambling. Gambling – definition: To play a game for money or property; to bet, to take a chance, to risk on an uncertain outcome; to expose yourself to danger and to proceed in the face of it. The attraction of gambling is entertainment and the love of money. Both are very addictive strongholds of Satan. The victims are people who are lazy, covetous, foolish and ambitious at the same time. That combination is deadly. Gambling is a scheme to escape labor, but in reality, gambling is an evil spirit that kills and destroys. Recently a young lady approached me and said “Tabby I really need your prayers. I have a gambling problem. And I need to stop before this makes me crazy. I have taken loans from everywhere. I even went back home and sold a cow. I have debts surrounding me right, left and center as we speak because I take loans so as to gamble. I am working but ...

Pregnant Bride Hello sisters, its being a minute. Can we talk? Yes, I mean now! Marriage is a good thing. Wedding is nice too. But when the bride's pregnant, When she walks down the aisle bearing a protruding belly. The marriage has been dishonored. And the bed? Defiled! Then, its no longer 'joining in holy matrimony' It is called Thanksgiving celebration because the couple has already joined themselves. This is the common trend these days, I don't admire nor applaud it. Be the wife before you become a mother. If your pastor didn't tell you, hear this now, Introduction is not wedding... Engagement is not wedding...Dating and courtship isn’t a wedding. 'Will you marry me?' 'I will', is not wedding. 'His papa and mama already know me' is not wedding. Your fiancé/fiancée is not your wife or husband. You don't own his or her body and can't demand for it! Marriage is the ONLY license to sex...Make the marriage bed before yo...

God does not choose a spouse for us Many people feel that God can choose a spouse for them or reveal to them whom to marry. Some people wait for God to give them the name or show them a particular person to marry. Some  people rely on Pastors or Ministers to pray and reveal to them their  destined spouses. Many people believe that there is a particular person they have been destined to Marry. Does God choose a spouse for us? God does not choose a spouse for any man nor woman and God does not tell any man neither any woman who to marry. In fact, God cannot choose a wife for any man. Some people say that because Adam accused God that it was the woman he gave him that led him to sin, God stopped choosing wives for men. This assumption is not true as God did not choose Eve for Adam. Eve wasn’t the first and only creature God presented to Adam. There were other creature but his choice was Eve. Adam chose Eve himself. Man is a free moral agent. We are the only creatur...

He brings you new life. I never fully knew what that signified when I was younger. I understood that you make the decision to follow Jesus and try your best to be like Him. I wouldn’t truly grasp what new life meant until I had felt the weight of being right in the mud. How incredible and such a blessing is that you can be so full of shame and guilt and suffering, and He can come along and wipe it all away. Clean your slate and make you new. How fortunate are we that we have a Father that loves us that much? It is said that He creates beauty out of ashes. That He can take something so torn apart and worn and make it bloom. That’s what He did with my muddy self. I do not remember how i had got there to start with. It did not feel right...It did not look right. I knew better. I had to find my way out but i did not know how. In life, almost all of us have “muddy” moments -  moments when we experience pain or trials that are deep and thick and so very hard to...

This is the story of how God’s mercy found me.  How His goodness and grace have redeemed and restored   even me .  May you know the hope that God can, and will, do the same for you! People have been wondering and some outright asking how i made it to be the person i am today. My all time answer is that "mercy found me!" It's cliche' how most people would rather say they found God. Does it even sound right? Conceivably  it depends from which side of the pendulum you might be swinging from. From my side it is erroneous to state that God found me. Perhaps since God has always been there loving us from the word go. But God,  being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ— by grace you have been saved—and raised us up with Him and seated us with Him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages He might show the immeasurab...